My name is Victoria, I'm 28 years old, I'm 5'4 and I have disproportionatly large breasts (34HH). They weigh 1.8kg each, almost 8lbs in total. My breasts give me back pain, bad posture and contribute to my mental health disorders (anxiety, body dysmorphia, eating disorder).
I have desperately wanted a breast reduction since I was 15 years old. I've been to the doctor's a few times to discuss this; the first time they told me to lose weight, the second time we set up physiotherapy which I did for a few months and the physiotherapist agreed that a breast reduction would be the next best step for me. And then most recently, I spoke to a female doctor and she told me I was blessed, that I shouldn't have a reduction because other girls pay thousands to have breasts like mine and that I should be grateful. Continuing with the NHS may seem like the best option for me but because of the pandemic slowing things down and the way that doctors have continuesly dismissed me, I don't know how long that will take and if they'll even accept me.
Due to the size and weight of my breasts I have very poor posture and when I'm on my feet for long periods of time it causes me sharp pain in my lower back and general aching throughout the rest of my back, even after a walk or doing housework I feel some aching after. When I try to stand with a correct posture, I feel immediate pain in my upper back and cannot stand that way for more than a few minutes. I experience pinched nerves in my neck and shoulders often because of the weight of my breasts. Buying both bras and clothes is difficult and expensive, my breasts seem to continue to grow so I have to keep replacing bras which I can't always afford.
My breasts were larger than average from the age of 13, practically still a child. Girls would shame and bully me, boys would harass me online for pictures. Due to this I suffer with body dysmorphia, I look at myself and see a monster, I don't understand how anyone could find me attractive or love me. I tell myself that I have to lose weight as that is the only way I can be happy or get any help from the NHS and this has lead me to develop an eating disorder. I binge eat because I'm miserable and then regret it, beat myself up for it and often times make myself sick because if I gain any more weight my dream of a breast reduction gets further and further away. Even when I've tried to lose weight it hasn't helped, I lost 2 and a half stone in 2016 but my breasts continued to grow even though I was at a steady weight.
After 14 years of crying, aching and hating myself I now believe my best option is to seek private health care. Reduction prices in the UK start from £6,500 and my goal is to go from a HH cup to a C cup in order to be comfortable with my body. This is NOT at all for cosmetic reasons, it's purely for my physical and mental well-being. I will be beyond grateful for any donations and I understand during this time everyone is struggling with money so if you are unable to donate, please share! I will appreciate that just as much.
If you made it to here, thank you so so much for just taking an interest! Enjoy the rest of your day, Victoria x